today seems not so good for me.i am half ok.i just can't explain how i feel.maybe this is because of what happened last night.i just can't take the things is heard.it is so painful to know that your own father is the one bringing you down.i really thought everything that happened to me is already accepted.i understand that it is not fully accepted.but you it doesn't need to be repeated.and it is so painful that despite everything i do, there is something bad inside him.ok!i know.i made a mistake.but don't i deserve any second chance? i am trying to give everything.i always try to be very good.and another thing.it hurts when you hear bad things against your brother.how could he defend himself? it is i who heard everything... it broke my heart knowing that he keeps grudges.. it is impossible to change those heartaches he has... but isn't it unfair? why does he need to tell it to other people? can't he just make himself calm and try to weigh things? my brother has his reasons why he is like that... he needs to respect his decisions... if he doesn't want to support his causes, it is not restricted to be quiet..
i love my father... but i just can't stand what he is saying about me and my brother... i know his ideas are difficult to break but we have feelings too...
